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Chapter 5 - The Weight of a Feather

By mid-November, the blizzard hit Chicago with full force. The wind coming off the lake screamed through the steel girders of the city, driving three feet of heavy, wet snow across the avenues and bringing public transit to a grinding halt.

I didn't expect her to come.

At 11:30 PM, the news reported that the CTA buses were suspended across the north side. The streets were impassable for anything short of a heavy snowplow or an armored municipal vehicle. The rest of the day staff had cleared out by six, leaving only the skeleton security team in the basement guardroom.

I sat in my bedroom, reading through a stack of intelligence briefings on our rival operations in West Chicago. The house was silent—so silent I could hear the deep, rhythmic creaking of the oak roof beams settling under the weight of the snow.

Then, at 12:10 AM, I heard it.

A faint, wet thud in the outer corridor.

I pulled the lever on my chair, rolled over to the door, and opened it.

Emma was standing in the center of the hall. She was shaking so violently her teeth were making an audible clicking sound that echoed off the marble walls.

She had walked.

Her thin canvas sneakers were soaked through, turned into solid blocks of dark gray ice. Her jeans were wet up to her knees, frozen stiff into cardboard-like plates that crackled when she moved her legs. She wasn't wearing a winter coat—just a threadbare knitted cardigan over her gray polo shirt, soaked through with melted snow. Her hair was matted to her scalp, her skin turned a terrifying, ghostly shade of blue-white.

She was holding her plastic cleaning caddy in one blue, trembling hand.

"What... are you doing here?" I roared, my voice exploding into the quiet hall. I wheeled my chair forward, my eyes wide with shock and fury. "Are you insane?!"

She looked up at me. Her lips were blue—deep, dark indigo. She tried to speak, but her jaw was locked so tight by hypothermia that only a wet, whistling gasp came out of her mouth.

"I... I had to..." she squeaked out, her knees wobbling dangerously beneath her frozen jeans. "The shift... Mrs. Gable said..."

"Fuck Mrs. Gable!" I screamed, pulling my chair right up to her side. "Look at you! You're freezing to death!"

I reached out, grabbing her upper arm to pull her toward the warm radiator unit near the wall.

The second my hand touched her, her eyes rolled back into her head.

Her knees buckled completely. She didn't fall forward or back; she simply dissolved toward the floor like a puppet whose strings had been cut all at once.

"Emma!"

Instinct took over—an old, muscular memory from a life when my legs worked. I lunged forward out of my chair, reaching out with both arms to catch her before her head hit the black marble.

My massive upper body caught her weight easily, but my lower half was useless. I couldn't brace myself with my feet. The momentum dragged me out of the seat of my wheelchair, and we both spilled onto the floor in a tangled, chaotic heap.

I hit the marble hard on my left hip, my dead legs twisting uselessly beneath me. But I kept my arms wrapped around her chest, keeping her head resting against my broad shoulder.

She was freezing. Her body felt like a block of ice wrapped in wet wool. She weighed almost nothing—sixty, maybe seventy pounds of dead weight against my chest.

"Emma! Wake up! Emma!" I barked, slapping her pale, wet cheek with my open palm.

Her eyes remained closed, her breathing faint, shallow, and terrifyingly rapid.

"Guardroom! Code Red east wing!" I shouted toward the ceiling-mounted intercom system, but the secondary security station was three floors down, and the blizzard noise outside was drowning out everything.

I couldn't get back into my chair. Not while holding her.

I gritted my teeth, dug my elbows into the cold marble, and dragged myself backward along the floor, pulling Emma’s limp body with me toward my master suite.

It was fifty feet of agony. My shoulders burned, my palms skidded on the wet patches left by her frozen jeans, and my dead legs dragged behind us like heavy logs of mahogany. But I didn't let go of her. I held her tight against my chest, feeling the weak, erratic flutter of her heart against my ribs.

We reached the threshold of my bedroom. I dragged us inside, pulled us up against the base of my king-sized bed, and reached up to grab a heavy goose-down duvet from the mattress.

I yanked the blanket down over us, covering her body completely, and pulled her wet, shivering frame directly into my lap.

"Stay awake... damn you, stay awake," I growled, taking her blue, frozen hands between my massive, warm palms and rubbing them with frantic, furious friction.

Her body began to shiver violently—a involuntary reflex as the warmth from the down blanket and my chest began to penetrate her cold core. She let out a low, whimpering groan, her head rolling back against my collarbone.

I didn't care about the wet wool soaking through my clothes. I didn't care about my ruined dignity, lying on the floor like a broken soldier.

I wrapped both my massive arms around her, pressing her small, frozen body completely against mine, letting my body heat bleed through her wet shirt.

"You stupid, desperate girl," I whispered into her wet, icy hair, my chin resting against the top of her head as I rocked her slowly back and forth on the floor. "You stupid, beautiful girl..."

She moved slightly, her cheek rubbing against the warm skin of my throat. A soft, tiny sigh slipped from her blue lips—a sound so small, so fragile, that it felt louder than any gun I had ever fired.

And sitting there in the dark on the hardwood floor, surrounded by three feet of Chicago snow and the ghost of my old life, I felt something burst inside my chest.

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It wasn't anger. It wasn't pain.

It was the terrifying, unstoppable return of life.

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